wishing to forget

i forgot how it feels to have my palms ache

to silently cry, careful not to make a noise

to fall asleep with my eyelashes damp

to clench my jaw so tight i fear my teeth may snap

to breath as slowly as possible so not to sniffle

to repeat to myself over and over “it’s okay”

to desperately hope that no one notices

 

i wish i hadn’t remembered.

 

 

 

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