with everything going on, tension is especially high. i was naive enough to think that i could somehow make it not real or just act as i always do in order to avoid the inevitable. my anxiety manifested itself is subtle ways, things i tried hard to ignore. "you're fine," i constantly told myself. i … Continue reading spring is still coming
you know, it's strange how life ebbs and flows like the waves of the ocean. it's just as if to to keep you in this perfect balance. lately i've been riding so high i've been above the clouds. i've been joking lately with all my friends that life has been suspiciously good. things with tony are … Continue reading happy things sad things
it took me a while to process it, but my time at kajeet came and went. it was a wonderful three and a half years and now i'm on to the next adventure. my last day was so full of love and it was honestly such a positive send off. my dear coworker-turned-friend made me … Continue reading three and a half
lately my plants have been a big point of pride for me. if you recall from my last post about them, i've been slowly getting more and more from my mother. i was able to repot a few of them that needed extra love and attention. i've recently been looking for specific cute pots to … Continue reading green teens
i'm in the best place i've ever been in my life. aside from some work stress, everything in my life is pretty fantastic. i'm engaged to the most loving partner i could have ever imagined, my relationships with my family members are healthier than ever, financially i'm not drowning anymore, and i have such supportive … Continue reading birthday blues
it's a new year! can you believe it? and along with some other new years resolutions, i am trying to post on my blog much more this year - at least once a week. so far, so good, but it's only week two. new year's eve included another boodle fight. my family has been really … Continue reading into the new decade
twenty-nineteen was really special. i'm sad it's over, but i'm really looking forward to what's about to come! the last few weeks were most definitely the perfect way to close out the year, and even furthermore - the decade. tony and i got to attend the traditional filipino church service for christmas called simbang gabi. … Continue reading just before twentytwenty
i didn't think it was possible but i grew even more in 2019 than i did in 2018. after reading through my year end post from last year i was shocked to see that this year was so much more magical than i could have ever imagined. life changed so immensely that sometimes those difficult … Continue reading twenty nineteen
as i mentioned, my sister-in-law's younger brother, ryan, passed away a few days before thanksgiving. i got the call on wednesday morning from my mother telling me the tragic news. in hopes of supporting my brother and his family during this immensely difficult time, i attended the funeral that was held a week later. the … Continue reading a time to worship
i can't believe it's almost been two weeks now since halloween! i'm so sad that this year i was too busy and exhausted to go all out for my favorite holiday. i was still able to enjoy some of the spooky atmosphere, but in the end i didn't even get to carve any pumpkins. i … Continue reading a belated halloween
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